In the Land of Twilight

I think about you pretty much every day. :/

Sun, 17 Feb 2013 12:34:16 -0500

I think about you pretty much every day. :/

Every day I lose a little more of the person you fell in love with. Im becoming numb to this world....

Thu, 14 Feb 2013 18:32:27 -0500

Every day I lose a little more of the person you fell in love with. Im becoming numb to this world. My apathy is over taking me. Its apparent what I had was what they call trur love and my heart no longer has the urge yo try.

so, i pretty much spend like an hour every day looking at your pictures just being sad.

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 12:47:05 -0500

so, i pretty much spend like an hour every day looking at your pictures just being sad.

and the feeling of being lonely is setting in.

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 11:48:37 -0500

and the feeling of being lonely is setting in.

single life really isnt that bad, its just different

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 04:17:42 -0500

single life really isnt that bad, its just different

I like this new person i have become.

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 15:54:12 -0500

I like this new person i have become.

i just don’t really know what to do with myself now. to be honest, i just know that when the...

Fri, 18 Jan 2013 04:36:46 -0500

i just don’t really know what to do with myself now. to be honest, i just know that when the the days come where we would hang out and watch doctor who im going to die a little more on the inside. i need to learn to not be attached, to just let go like i use to. i use to be able to have no feelings and just skate by life not giving a fuck. but I just really thought to hard about a future with you to just watch it slip away slowly every day. Not sure what im going to do, I just know i love you Brea, saying that hurts me. because i know its over. forever and always always seems to have an ending for me that i do not want. i really need to just give up on “love” because it just ends with me in pain. i just seem to love the wrong people, whenever i fall in love there are always signs that its not going to be for forever. however i never listen to them. maybe i should just screw around and not worry with love. maybe i should join the marines and hopefully get deployed and die fighting. But how do you walk away from someone when they are everything you’ve ever wanted in a partner? its like im never going to find someone that meshes as well with me. this life just seems less worth living every time i get attached it is always dashed away. perhaps its me, perhaps im just not good enough. not sure what this means. but i wish things were different. i wish things could work out, but none the less i will miss you, dearly. and my heart will never fully heal from this wound. its funny i did just say love doesnt change people, its the heartbreak afterwards that does. i think i am experiencing that as we speak. is there even a point to this tumblr anymore. i use to log on to see sweet words from My Brea, but i doubt she will ever post again, so i guess….. this is my last post, theres no point in having this anymore. I fucking hate life and just wish it could all end.

What am I suppose to do now? Who is going to tell me they love me and say goodnight. I hate...

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 18:53:46 -0500

What am I suppose to do now? Who is going to tell me they love me and say goodnight. I hate everything. I just want to be alone I guess. So I cant hurt again. I really cant take this anymore. Theres nothing to look forward too anymore. No reason to get out of bed. I just need to die snd get fhis over with. Theres no one here for me. Cant stop crying. I should of just killed myself jn 7th grade when I tried.

Lonely. Sad. Easing into “I dont care if I die” state of mind. If I lose brea I might...

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 02:05:49 -0500

Lonely. Sad. Easing into “I dont care if I die” state of mind. If I lose brea I might aswell die across seas.

You really are becoming the shittiest girlfriend ive ever had

Wed, 16 Jan 2013 17:15:49 -0500

You really are becoming the shittiest girlfriend ive ever had

Cant wait to get dumped. Go me.

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 19:52:54 -0500

Cant wait to get dumped. Go me.

Unhappy

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 15:35:16 -0500

Unhappy

Something has changed with you over the past months :/

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 01:45:19 -0500

Something has changed with you over the past months :/

just let it go Jesse….. she won’t be yours much longer anyways, she already told you...

Sat, 20 Oct 2012 16:46:11 -0400

just let it go Jesse….. she won’t be yours much longer anyways, she already told you that. so what if another guys is going to have her for the night. just don’t think about it. let it go. don’t let yourself think about it anylonger. your just killing the small bit of whats left inside your chest. so stop it, please, do it for yourself.

One day. i’ll be just a face and a memory.

Wed, 03 Oct 2012 08:55:02 -0400

One day. i’ll be just a face and a memory.

Photo

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 09:31:35 -0400

farewelltomediocrity: The insomnia distance of everything. You...

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 09:25:31 -0400

farewelltomediocrity:

The insomnia distance of everything. You can’t touch anything and nothing can touch you.

I love you more than peanut butter.

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 05:39:01 -0400

I love you more than peanut butter.

Let me keep this one. Please just this once.

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 21:34:59 -0400

Let me keep this one. Please just this once.

I really just want to work through all of our problems and go back to being cuddle buddies who never...

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 06:08:45 -0400

I really just want to work through all of our problems and go back to being cuddle buddies who never argued.